The Wondering Me

 I think me time is such overated.

I want some time alone, I need time to do things for myself, I am so tired, I am this, I am that… ughh the never ending whining!

Don’t you just hate it when people whines within earshot and you just want to shake them and say “STOP whining and just DO what you gotta do!!”

Geez, grab a hold of your own life people!

Well, that’s me, zillion light years ago in a galaxy far far away.

I am now in a brave new world, moms world to three adolescents. These people rock my world. Everyday, without fail! My life is their world. And I kindly get a little bit lost there. I tend to forget what I enjoyed mostly for myself coz I was to absorb in enjoying those family time that I’ve missed all those years!

No more pampering myself at high end spa. No more washing hair at top range beauty saloon, no more spurring money at those luxury boutiques.

I don’t miss all that; honest! 

Don’t get me wrong, being a full time lady of the house, I do get my me time once a while, getting a massage lady coming to my place to enjoy 1 hour of delightful pampering time… well, who am I kidding. I kinda had enough of home spa, whereby the messuer has to come to my place and I have to make small talk to them and prepare drinks after the session completed…

Well, I do missed going to the spa… I enjoy the quiet time whilst the messuer lighted the scented candles, and play soft music that are jewel to the ears, enjoying the warm tea with small snack after the session… aahhh purely heaven.

Fast forward, here I am,  without realising it, I am one of the whiners! I’m tired, I don’t have time, I this, I that and the list go on and on.

Well, boo hoo! Nobody cares. First and foremost, we’re moms. It’s kinda expected to put our family needs as top priorities. Cooking, doing the dishes, laundry, cleaning and yada yada yada, the list never end.

One may ask, do I miss the time when I was at the height of  my career, earning six figures and when everyone jump at my every whimp and hired a lived in maid to take care of your children at home?

Do I regret leaving my post? What would I do differently if I were given the opportunity to rewind to my 20s again?

Hmmm… let me see…

Absolutely NOTHING!

I’ve worked so hard during my younger days, I may have missed lots of parents teacher meeting, but realised my priorities just at nick of time and was able to reverse the situation.

I was able to be a full time mom at the age where they really need me to be with them. And now I realise that being a full time mom, I do not need to sacrifice my ‘Me time’. It is decision that I have to make without whining. 

A girl gotta do what a girl gotta do.

Effective this year, I look forward to more luxurious pampering time, travel as I know how and enjoy living.

Welcome 2023. Let’s have a blast!!!